Eyes awaken in the morn,
To see another day.
Well rested,
But still feeling depleted inside.
I need you.
Need your warmth.
Need to feel your heavenly body.
Want to consume all of you,
As your heavenly shade explores my soul.
I want you.
Naked before you, my dear,
I come to you for the comfort
That only you can give.
This heavenly being is the Sun.
And in the morning, I let its warmth feed my soul.
I’m kissing you goodbye again.
I’m saying farewell to heartache.
Should have never came back to you again.
So I leave ‘cause my happiness is at stake.
Never really knew you could be so cold.
Blind sided, I let you cut me so deep.
Let your sunshine and ocean nights grab hold,
And in your strong arms I’d be rocked to sleep.
What a twisted web you spun around me,
Where your light blinded me like night stars.
Wandering through darkness and could not see.
Never really knowing just what we are.
And what we are is a love in the past.
A love that has long fizzled out with time.
A love that I realized would not last.
With hope filled eyes, wanted it to be mine.
So I came back to you with hope in heart.
You treated me like your bitch in waiting,
Like I’d always be around; you were smart.
Los Angeles, you proved you are failing.
Never will I let you hurt me again.
Never again will you make my eyes cry.
Never will change my life for you again.
No, there’s no need for us to ever try.
I’m kissing you goodbye again.
I’m saying farewell to heartache.
Sometimes we have to say a painful goodbye to someone or something, whether it be abusive family members, “friends”, or even a way of life. This poem isn’t about a person, as you’ve noticed with my other “love poems” that I’ve posted on my site. Here, I’m saying goodbye to an old life, to make way for one that’s new. For it to be nicknamed “The City of Angels,” Los Angeles has caused me nothing but the blues. Moving on and doing the right thing feels so good.
On Freedom: “No price is too high to pay for the priviledge of owning yourself.” – Nietzsche
Could it be that I know heaven?
Embraced in your strong hold,
Thoughts of a world unknown
Of a feeling never felt.
Making me think.
You teach me.
Words spoken from your tongue of gold.
You amaze me.
Making me smile.
Into your eyes, I gaze.
You make my heart feel safe
Whenever you’re around me.
Could it be that you’re my heaven?
A place that I’ve longed for.
A place where I can tear down my walls,
And open my arms and embrace it all.
Having the time to reflect on self,
I’ve come to realize that what I seek is within me.
I’ve wallowed in self doubt, and in the process
I’ve put creative dreams on hold.
Always making excuses for what I can’t do and why,
And what I don’t have time for.
The years have slipped away for making dreams a reality.
The years have slipped away, but time allows for second attempts,
For me to make the best of time that’s left.
I see so clearly now, and my senses are alive.
I feel revived as if a new me has been born.
With a new sense of self, I will create
What might be the masterpiece of a lifetime.
A masterpiece to make me weep tears of joy
That I accomplished what I set forth to do.
I’ve decided to put fear aside, and make my dreams a reality.
I shall try once again without reservation.
Having the time to reflect on self,
I’ve come to realize that what I seek is within me.
It’s Creativity.
It’s Happiness.
It’s Paradise.
My Quiet Fire In A Busy City 