Heartbeat is fading.
Almost non existent
As my soul is nearly depleted.
No expectations of humanity,
And devoid of all care.
What to do in a world of uncertainty?
What to do when the love is gone?
Feels like I’m drowning,
And I can’t come up for air.
My feelings are my own.
No longer buried deep inside.
Bitterness has festered,
Anger has taken over.
I feel numb.
Will my heartbeat live again?
Forgive me Father, for I have sinned.
Will I ever believe in Hope again?
I want to live like I’ve never lived.
No wasted moments.
No suspension of time.
I want to soar freely to higher heights,
And from the clouds I’ll emerge,
As I greet the sun on my way to heaven.
With a renewed heart, I feel love,
To be able to move with no fears, as I’ve left them behind.
Guided by a power like no other,
I can fly far beyond the moon.
The sky’s the limit.
And I’ll just keep going as if the sky is all mine.
When darkness burries the sun,
And the world is heavy upon soft shoulders,
Heavy is the load that is carried,
And despair is the emotion that is felt.
One can become blinded by the unknown,
And stricken down by fear.
Possibilities remain at a distance,
As if these are merely thoughts in the wind.
Unclarity has sunken in.
Then along comes the sun.
Love.
Love loves me.
Love believes in me.
Love’s light adorns me.
I hear Love’s voice, and I can see once again.
Love never let’s me suffer,
And Love never let’s me fail.
In my hour of sorrow, it’s Love’s faith, Love’s love, that prevails.
Faith is restored,
And one is guided by your light.
Onward to a righteous path,
I will know no wrong,
Because the Love you share is right.
Never imagined I’d see yesterday through tomorrow’s eyes.
Hope now blinded once again by the truth,
Of an uncertainty in life that is all too real.
Living in a world full of broken hearts, promises, and paths.
Where is my sunshine and rainbow?
Where is my shovel to dig myself out of this hell of despair and fear?
Where is the train to Anyplace other than here?
The time has come for me to write my last post of 2016. As always, I want to say, “Thank you” to everyone who has visited my site, liked a post, or left a comment. As with any approaching new year, and now, a new presidency, life is full of uncertainty. On the flip side of this, life can also be full of possibilities. I want 2017 to be a year of possibilities, opportunities, and growth. May all of you make the very best of your 2017 and beyond.
There’s uncertain travels on the long road to somewhere.
Twists and turns on a questionable road.
Unpaved paths to new unknowns,
That make you put guarded faith on the line.
Unpaved paths to new unknowns,
That make you put guarded faith on the line.
Uncertainty and doubt are heavy loads to bear,
And these elements eat away at one’s core.
Too far forward, so there’s no turning back now,
But for a moment in time, one’s feet are frozen still.
More road to travel, but the frightened heart wants to say it’s the end.
What if?
What happens at the end of the road?
When the hope dies out,
And positive vibes become non existent?
A stagnant existence is born that kills each breath taken,
And causes one to fade.
One will never know the possibilities.
What if?
What happens on the road still taken?
When you muster the strength to drop the load of uncertainty and doubt.
The body is now light.
Fluid movements allow you to just be.
Free.
And one can now see with clear eyes.
There’s something about being free,
That causes the body to press on.
Keep moving. Keep striving. Keep searching.
There’s a chance you’ll see what your heart is searching for.
There’s uncertain travels on the long road to somewhere.
Twists and turns on a questionable road.
Unpaved paths to new unknowns,
That make you put guarded faith on the line.
Uncertainty and doubt are heavy loads to bear,
And these elements eat away at one’s core.
Too far forward, so there’s no turning back now,
But for a moment in time, one’s feet are frozen still.
More road to travel, but the frightened heart wants to say it’s the end.
What if?
What happens at the end of the road?
When the hope dies out,
And positive vibes become non existent?
A stagnant existence is born that kills each breath taken,
And causes one to fade.
One will never know the possibilities.
What if?
What happens on the road still taken?
When you muster the strength to drop the load of uncertainty and doubt.
The body is now light.
Fluid movements allow you to just be.
Free.
And one can now see with clear eyes.
There’s something about being free,
That causes the body to press on.
Keep moving. Keep striving. Keep searching.
There’s a chance you’ll see what your heart is searching for.
Take that chance.
Never surrender your dreams.
What do you do when your heart dries out?
When there’s no blood left to shed?
When the beauty of bodies float away like dust?
When all you can feel is despair?
So many days and nights have my heart cried out,
To hollow ears who hear me not.
Hollow ears don’t hear my screams in the night.
Hollow ears know not my soul’s twists and turns.
And blind eyes don’t see my bloodshed,
When murderous hands perform the devil’s deeds.
So, what do you do when your heart cries out?
When there’s no one who seems to care?
It’s nearing the end of 2014. Another year has come and gone. The time has come for me to say my “Thank You” to everyone. I truly appreciate you taking the time to visit my site, liking my posts, and leaving comments for me. I don’t consider myself a poet, but poetry has been a way of expressing my thoughts and coping with my emotions since I was a teenager.
2014 has been an emotional roller coaster for me and others around the world. I have certainly shed my share of tears out of both fear and sorrow. It may be my naive thinking, but as bleek as our “justice” system is here in the U.S., I still believe that one day we will have a such thing as a fair and just legal system, and we will all be free. I still have hope and stars in my eyes. If this is only a dream, then let me dream it to be able to carry on. Only time will tell if true justice will ever be seen.
While waiting for justice to show it’s face, in the meantime, my heart is weary and I’m tired. But still, I must move forward with my head held high.
In spite of the world’s cruelty and troubles, may 2015 be a productive and successful year for you all.
Today is Friday, February 25, 2011 at 5:00 pm in Los Angeles, and the gray clouds are hovering above. Rainfall is expected tonight and tomorrow. There’s something soothing about listening to the rain tap against my window. Being at home, curled up on the couch with a warm blanket, while sipping on hot lemon tea, relaxes the body, the mind, and the spirit. Putting it simply, it just feels good to relax and think about nothing. Whatever troubles appear and show their ugly heads, seem to disappear to the melodic sound of raindrops. As I sit out on the balcony viewing the skyline, I await the rain. Even if for a moment, the troubles in the world or of the day will no longer matter nor exist, because the rain will wash it all away.
The following poem entitled, ‘Believe,’ was written on June 30, 2009…the day I was laid off from my job. Although I was quickly rehired, I was overwhelmed with emotion. It’s not easy to have something that you love taken away from you so unfairly. But such is life, as it’s not always fair. At that moment, I couldn’t do anything else besides try to keep the faith and believe.
When darkness buries the sun,
And the world is upon my shoulders,
Heavy is the load I carry.
And despair is the emotion I feel.
Blinded by the unknown,
And stricken down by fear.
Possibilities remain at a distance,
As if these are merely thoughts in the wind.
Unclarity has sunken in.
Then along comes the sun.
I hear your voice, and I can see once again.
You never let me suffer,
And you never let me fail.
In my hour of sorrow, it’s your faith and love that prevails.
Faith is restored in me
And I am guided by your light.
Onward to a brand new path.
Jeff Lorber ‘Rain Dance’ Video Posted To You Tube By Herecomes Mongo On July 11, 2011
My Quiet Fire In A Busy City 