I carry the weight
Of love in abundance.
Of brighter days
That see with wide eyes.
I carry the weight
That is never a burden.
It’s a weight that feels light.
A
m weight that feels divine.
The weight of paradise is upon my shoulders.
No pain does this heart feel.
No hate shall bound me.
A feeling surreal.
Feeling like feathers in the wind
Carried away in bliss.
This is the weight that I carry.
It’s the weight of love’s kiss.
Never imagined I’d see yesterday through tomorrow’s eyes.
Hope now blinded once again by the truth,
Of an uncertainty in life that is all too real.
Living in a world full of broken hearts, promises, and paths.
Where is my sunshine and rainbow?
Where is my shovel to dig myself out of this hell of despair and fear?
Where is the train to Anyplace other than here?
What do you see when you see me?
An intelligent woman whose free?
A poet with a knack for self expression?
A woman with the right to just be?
What song do you hear from my sweet voice?
Do I sing a song of misery?
Do I sing a song so unfamiliar to you?
Do I sing only of what you want to see?
What do you feel when we’re face to face?
Is it fear that enters your mind?
Or yet, an image of a thug or disgust?
If it is, then why can’t you feel my kind?
Even with endless cruelty, my heart still beats.
I walk forward with my head held high.
Walk with a fist in the air that you see as racist.
But I just call it solidarity, self love, and self pride.
What is it that you see within this body?
And why can’t you just see me?
A vivid image I see
when I close my eyes.
A wild imagination
that allows desires to live freely.
I see us in a strong embrace,
as we let time suspend until forever.
The warmth of your body
electrifies my soul.
A simple touch
ignites feelings unknown to the mind.
Voice as smooth as silk,
it carries me beyond the clouds,
and makes me believe I’ve reached the gates of Heaven.
Eyes as beautiful as the sun,
they draw me closer to you.
And then I awake.
I still feel this surreal reality from deep within,
and the memories engrained will forever linger on.
Today is Friday, February 25, 2011 at 5:00 pm in Los Angeles, and the gray clouds are hovering above. Rainfall is expected tonight and tomorrow. There’s something soothing about listening to the rain tap against my window. Being at home, curled up on the couch with a warm blanket, while sipping on hot lemon tea, relaxes the body, the mind, and the spirit. Putting it simply, it just feels good to relax and think about nothing. Whatever troubles appear and show their ugly heads, seem to disappear to the melodic sound of raindrops. As I sit out on the balcony viewing the skyline, I await the rain. Even if for a moment, the troubles in the world or of the day will no longer matter nor exist, because the rain will wash it all away.
The following poem entitled, ‘Believe,’ was written on June 30, 2009…the day I was laid off from my job. Although I was quickly rehired, I was overwhelmed with emotion. It’s not easy to have something that you love taken away from you so unfairly. But such is life, as it’s not always fair. At that moment, I couldn’t do anything else besides try to keep the faith and believe.
When darkness buries the sun,
And the world is upon my shoulders,
Heavy is the load I carry.
And despair is the emotion I feel.
Blinded by the unknown,
And stricken down by fear.
Possibilities remain at a distance,
As if these are merely thoughts in the wind.
Unclarity has sunken in.
Then along comes the sun.
I hear your voice, and I can see once again.
You never let me suffer,
And you never let me fail.
In my hour of sorrow, it’s your faith and love that prevails.
Faith is restored in me
And I am guided by your light.
Onward to a brand new path.
Jeff Lorber ‘Rain Dance’ Video Posted To You Tube By Herecomes Mongo On July 11, 2011
My Quiet Fire 